Thursday, March 3, 2011
okie, this is really weird..
it's been months i never blog..and today i have this feeling to express some feeling in myself..
where should i start..
okie, exam is over...yeah..but result? hmm..i hope it will be better then my sem1 result..
just went for camp last friday, hmm... how should i say... okie lar kan
i really hope that the upcoming leader learn something...
i'm sorry to say i dun help much..i just there to guide u but to scold the junior is a big NO to me...
it's the upcoming leaders to scold not me...
that 3 days is fun...i hate the catering food...is sucks!! seriously 2 dolar for that n it's like wth! tk sedap!
but the outdoor cooking is amazing! is super nice! i miss doing outdoor cooking, where u need to dig the ground and do ur own fire.... i'm pro at it k! hehehe..i love playing wif all this...lol! at least i help along... nick lagy best...mane entah dier pergy... but our pizza was burnt! too bad but i still eat lar..and it still nice... there no more banana choc! they change to sweet potato! omg! so diff kan! n i dun like it! ok, too many complain lar zu! just makan jek lar..hehe... ok! off track already!
so yea..next is the campfire... woah....seriously something diff but not too bad..i think they can do better...dun have my fav song..but it's okie... they have alot to learn...
on the 28 feb... we have class chalet... kat changi... yes is super far from my house....
i didn't stay cause my parent dun allowed me..pfft~
so yea...BBQ is awesomez! haha..i just love all this outdoor cooking...so nice! yummy! delicious! haha
kk..now i'm hungry... i just realise i'm getting fatter! woah...zu is fat! unbelievable..that's most of them say cause i use to be skinny minny girl...mcm lidi ketot gytu..lol somehow i miss being skinny..hehe..kk dah sudah2! so ya..after BBq -ing around 11pm i went home... n it's super late! where there not alot of people on the train..mostly are the drunker....omg..scary experience sey... i got home around 1am..okie super late...n i'm so glad my prent tk marah..fuh...
on 1 march, i didn't go anywhere.... too tired... i wake up at 1pm... woah..amazing kan.. but seriously i'm so freaking tired ah....
2 march, ok this is the worst day ever...i hate it... first must go for work briefing and it's kidda waste of my time..nothing much to do... second, i had late meal! guess wat,my first meal is at 7pm! tau aku puasa sey! lol... n third is the most sad ones... haish... i'm trying hard to forget him but i saw this guy look similar like him..i feel like crying...seriously i'm so sad.... omg...help me pls..i need to be strong..i need to move on... y my heart dun want let it go...u knw wat boy, because of u.. i start to hate guys...argh!!! i'm so scare to let other guy to come into my life n start all that again... u have stolen my heart but pls dun tak my smile away...ok now i feel like crying..ok shss...zu.. u can do it k! i know u can! =)
sometimes it's not that i dun want share wif people about my life...but i dun feel there a need...
woah...so ego sia me... ya i think i am...i'm just an ego sensitive freak wif full of jealousy....
ok shut up zu! ok..i sound like crazy person now..talking to myself...
okie...tmrw i'm working... n i haven't sleep...
i just realise something in me..i'm getting more arrogant and violent... oh man..that's not me...
my patience is really low, i just scare one day i might just punch someone..even my love ones... oh man....hope it won't happen...
u knw wat, i just wondering whether people love me or not cause i just feel that i;m just a freak who is a loser n people hate me.. i dun knw..that's wat i feel...
ok done.. the more i write... the negative i can be..
XOXO zELenaG
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